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I am so excited that Kate is well and was able to go to her session today.  She was in such a good mood after her session, for the most part.  She was busy in an alert sort of way and interacting with me alot.  The biggest thing I noticed today was she was looking at me in the eyes so much.  I love that!  There is just a quality to her eyes that is new and indescribable and it is awesome to see it!

We are reading George's Marvelous Medicine at bedtime.  She thinks it is soooo funny!  It was hard to stop reading tonight, and she is still awake at 9:00.  It is fun to see her getting so into these books.  She is starting to predict what is going to happen next in the story and is able to summarize what happened in the previous chapters pretty well now.  Tonight she was laughing out loud at what George was putting in the pot.  She was laughing so loud that she asked if it was ok, if it would disturb the neighbors.  Laughing, we decided is ok, it's the yelling that would disturb them.

She did the at home exercises twice today, back from a 6 day break.  We had to get a new motivation system for her to do them so we went to Michaels and got some bling.  She gets a sticker for each time she does all the exercises, so she can earn 3 stickers a day.  She is finally understanding that she can use the sticker right away for a 1 sticker item, or save her stickers and get a 3 sticker item later.  Right now she is working for a 12 sticker item!!  Honestly, I didn't think she would ever do it.  But she is 3 stickers away.  Tomorrow she will get her red gem!!

It felt good today to pick up the apartment and I even vacuumed.  It felt great to have enough energy to do these things.  I take for granted being able to do the "chores" and even sometimes complain that I "have" to do them.  But, what a different perspective it is to want to do chores and not be able to. 

Anyway, I just realized that I do a lot.  Cooking healthy meals, cleaning up a bit, taking care of Kate and myself is a lot.  I think that I am always trying to do more.  I have the feeling that what I am doing is not enough.  There is always something more I can be doing, going, having, making, being.  So that message really hit home when I was sick.  I was unable to do the mundane things, as Matt called them.  But I realized that the grocery shopping and cooking and cleaning and dishes are essential.  And I AM doing enough, even just by doing those things.  All the rest is a bonus.